Bitter clarity

It couldn't be clearer than this. Having talked to strangers and self, friends and family, life and god. One thing is clear. You're all alone in this journey. Everyone else is just there on their own. Some will stay with you for short period some will stick for long. Some will be there out of compulsion , some out of necessity but sooner or later it would be clear that no one is responsible for our lives but us. People will say whatever they want to say. You have to know what you want from life. There is no excuse and if you do not know that or do not want to be honest enough then no one is not blame but yourself. Own up to it. Know that the true enemy is fear . And once it has played it's part you'd realise that the true currency in life is time. Yes, time is the most valuable currency. Whatever we do ,we do with it. Listening to one's voice should be simple and straightforward but why does it become tough? Insecurities, fear , guilt and what not. Never stray . Toughest thing to do but worth it. Don't hate anyone, it's futile. Don't waste your time . Really. Everyone is on their journey. You are on yours. There will be people , malevolent forces that you would have to face but you got to be yourself. No explanations to anyone. No judgments. No agendas but one. Create your dream. And then be the crazy punk to achieve it. If not , then so be it. - Dev Arbikshe

A New Perspective ( Wrote it a couple of years ago. )

A new perspective – 2013

Enter the New Year, 2013, and I have a simply scary dream. In the dream I am at the place where I was born and suddenly there is a huge earthquake which engulfs everything in matter of few seconds; just in the meanwhile I was transported to another place which was symbolic of all the mistakes I made in life. That place too is destroyed by another gigantic earthquake and finally I am on a huge tree gasping for breath, holding onto its branches for life and the next thing I see is that I am sitting in a diner, so unique that it makes me happy whenever I think about it. In the midst of the earthquakes and floods and contemplating about the bizarre turn of the events all the while the third earthquake is taking place, this time I feel safe. That was it, the end of the dream. When I woke up, it was 4 am and everything was so silent .Thinking about what the dream meant as sometimes our sub - conscious mind may help us by giving clues which we miss otherwise, I thought at first that I have had much more elaborate and vivid dreams which could have been much more meaningful if I had tried to decode them and make use of them! But there was something that pointed the folly of this line of thinking “if I had, could have, would have” etc. So this time I didn’t try to magnify or ignore it and could interpret it in only one way ; the dream initially showed two places which had nothing in common as they were symbolic of everything good and evil that happened in my life or what I did, the choices I made and even more importantly the aftermath. First place was the place where I had spent the most amazing time in my life and another one exact opposite in a way. What could the juxtaposition of these two places followed by subsequent earthquakes mean? I could only understand the meaning when I remembered there was a third place in the end: the diner. I was just thinking that I am unravelling the mystery behind it but now I think that I had understood it in the dream itself. It could only mean one thing; good or bad, both must be let go of. The earthquake symbolized the power of now taking over the silly tendency of being stuck in the past. The contemplation in the diner reached to one another conclusion: there is only this moment which is real and being alive in it is necessary to understand the meaning of life or even more important to live life in the right way. The past must not choke the present. And another on going earthquake in the process just illustrated the point much more i.e. stay in the moment.

---- Devender Sehrawat

Danny was a little boy

Danny was a little boy 
He didn't know what to do 
He had a lot of things on his mind 
But about life 
He didn't have a clue

He had a lot of talent 
But how was it going to shine through 
Danny was a little boy 
But he didn't know what to do .

Dev Arbikshe

Copyright: Devender Sehrawat

Note:
1. My Notes are not directed to any person or their life, they are purely fictional and result of my imagination.
2. My note is not inspired by any write up from another person. It is 100% original and non transferrable.

Wrote this last year ...... (The summer of 2014 is close)

The summer of 2014 is close. It's 5 a.m. and this quote updated by a person lot younger than yours truly welcomes the beckoning silence of the morning which doesn't last for long but just enough. The quote is as follows:

"The dream you are living  is your creation. It is your perception of reality that you can change at any time.  You have the power to create heaven and you have the power to create hell. Why not dream a different dream? "

A lifetime has passed by. An individual died and one is waiting to be born. But the question is, should the journey be continued or a new life lived with acceptance for the phoenix to rise from the ashes?  Ah, the sorcery and trickery of words!  Yes, it's true that some of my craziest dreams came true but so did fears. And then, I had enough time to reflect and observe on not just my life but the lives of people who have spent more than half a century on this planet!  
It's time to get real for real. No more deception. No more confusion. No more excuses. Not that I have not been real but if I don't live for my vision than what am I living for? I have lived as I wished to. But it's time to stop and define clearly the values I must live by.  Question everything that I have done. Love is a luxury but if you love life wouldn't it feel obliged to return the favour ?
One estranged friend who saw through the deception is following her journey. A pragmatist who reminds me of a really close friend of yesteryears, who was a pragmatist too. So here is this dreamer writing all of this trying to become saner and wiser?  A dreamer who had been foolish enough to chase the things that higher powers had been saving him from as they knew better. In the process of rescuing this silkworm from drowning in the ocean of life they tried their level best to teach him how to go with the flow, and waited at distance for him to assert his will, eagerly waiting for the butterfly to appear. They never wanted him to change himself, just become a better version of himself. They never wanted him to live someone's idea of life but he should pay heed to the messages. The trust must not be abused.'' What do you want, what do you want?'', they ask . 

Never fear for your life

is what they say 
but be awake, dear, they pray. 
So strange that for  a human
now gods pray. 

Is that why they sent her ? To awake him for the last time?  She doesn't know and wouldn't believe it but she has rekindled love in his heart; the purest kind. Can this flickering and rekindled flame save him? Can he become what he must  ? On different roads they stand, different creatures yet something so common in them. No, she's not an angel but in the pitch darkness even a firefly can show the way.

He has wrestled plenty of inner demons.

He thinks she's the one but if she is, and if he wants her to be happy he must know his place and be grateful for whatever light this firefly shines on the path of life for this silkworm which might enable him to bloom finally and be a butterfly ? These two souls have something in common. Near or far, similar or different journeys, may god bless them and they fulfil their stay on the planet. May they fulfil their purpose and if that purpose is not in  alignment with their higher good then may they have enough good sense to see so.

The city

I have often wondered why people are mean to each other. For years I have seen the savages marauding the city. My country is truly a circus . The notions of respect and civil behaviour are non existent here.  Might is right seems to be the only acceptable world view that is entrenched in the psych of the populace. Crush and rule, conscience is for fools! But this is the story of the entire sub - continent, not just one country. Something to do with the culture or genes?

Draw your pattern

Every time I touch my phone the screen says draw your pattern. These seemingly innocuous words have so much meaning than the obvious . It makes me think If I am actually living life consciously or I'm just going through the motions, evading taking necessary decisions or taking steps that might bring me closer to the life I'd want to live.

Things are not simple. Society, family; acquaintances etc. everyone connives to convince you to live life their way and impose their view, knowingly or unwittingly.  But the question is; are we  honest with ourselves?  Are we voyageurs or just ordinary people seeking security? I just watched a documentary about planets and other things floating in space. The vastness of space made me  realize the  folly of human beings and their misplaced egos. We are just tiny specks in this vast universe which is part of vaster space. There are millions of galaxies and within those galaxies are millions of solar systems . And to think of man as considering himself as the center of universe is a ridiculous notion.Humans have inflated egos who can be obliterated on any given day from the face of solar system any day by a huge meteorite or asteroid. To think of all the wars fought in the name of religion and for greed is mind boggling. Isn't all of the chaos in the world today a result of ignorance ?

Know thy place humans. 

----------Dev Arbikshe 

Life, 'The fault in our stars', a review

I watched a movie today, 'The fault in our stars'. A story of two cancer patients ;one optimist, the other 'human'. But there was one thing common in them, both were fearless.

Augustus cherishes each and every moment despite knowing that his and his girlfriend's time is limited on earth. It made me think whether  we truly appreciate life?  With all the prisons and phobias we trap ourselves in , isn't it an insult to life itself to do anything that in principle goes against its spirit?  
I remember the movie 'The Beach' that I watched years ago and the movie 'Cheats' and a few more such movies which I oddly relate with . Basically these are the movies which reflect the way I see the world, my aspirations and to some degree who I am or would like to  be. Either there is a message that I agree with or it's a reflection of life as I see it.

Augustus and his girlfriend represent two different point of views.  One is bursting with life and wants to leave an impression on this world and the other is just down to earth individual with her own way of seeing meaning in life.  There is no black and white when it comes to characters, they both have positive and defeatist tendencies . The reason why I mentioned those movies above  with this one is because of the common aspiration of getting the best out of life that the characters share in all these stories. 
I have witnessed miracles coming true but I have also recognized the folly of not being grateful for the gifts life gives us.Isn't it better to just live life each day without worrying about what we will achieve and just appreciate the people who have been part of our lives at any point rather than focusing on things that went wrong?

Life is full of pain, heartbreaks, hurdles and what not! People betray, friends become enemies, we forsake ourselves at times and there are occasions when nothing makes sense.  But don't we have a choice, albeit a hard one, to choose to focus on the moments that we could be grateful for rather than things or people that wronged us?

Tyler's philosophy in  'Fight Club' is the antidote  to the poisonous influences in society.  Live life, don't judge it! So don't neglect or ignore the people and things that matter but don't look for validation either.  Society is all about power, greed and money but life is about the difference made in the world, even if in one person's life. -

Dev Arbikshe

Messages through dreams

#Snakes, red snake with black stripes , #ancient  tomb ( like the one Keep of Kalessius trailer video).

#Tiger (calm). #Crocodile (calm). #Dog (barking)

#Waterfall and a dead monkey. White #wolves in ancestral home with red eyes. White clothes , silk, boats in still clear blue water, newborn baby and childhood dream, kid brother.

#Black giant horse. #Voodoo on self. #Rain . #Ancient temple dream.

#Whale. Giants. Flying. Old ancestral house lamps and lights , secret door opens a new forest and an enchanting world with fireflies at doorstep. #Alleyways, elephant birth, child.

#Snow , landscape, 3 bears - brown, black, white. A ship in the sweet water lake passes by . 7 sail boats lit with lights and 5 ships . #Decapitation dream.

#Mad mantis. Suicidal frog. Swimming in pool and then a tunnel transporting to another world. Jeepers creepers tunnel dream. #Blind gain sight dream.

Eating the eyes of a witch. Bus, too much water, subsides, plane, boat dream. Dream of fight with weapons, dagger.

White moving tables on multiple floors of a  building lit with white lights. Change of rooms.

Andaman dream, reconciliation. 4 lions dream. Children hugging.

Sugar cane field and grapes and strawberries dream. Ina distant temple angry goddess screaming.

Goldfish dream.Blue cat attack , lake crystal clear water, blue. Eating raw fish. Running in  the rain.
Castle dream with kids